August 2011
2 posts
what's happening
ball dropt
and we all froze
ball dropt
and it’s rolling on
ball dropt
i can’t keep on
ball dropt
thru fingers
thru hands
past our gaze
and around our heads
“it’s hard for everyone,”
she says to me
as if my story is un-unique
as if it’s just another leaf on the tree
as if it’s just another wrinkle on his forehead
as if
“i’m...
I can feel the dreams filling me up
Soon the time will come to plan
-xo-
March 2011
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The stars on my ceiling will guide me tonight. The neon-green shams of moons will watch me as I sleep. They will be my comrades as I battle having to dream about you. My night lights and I know that when you sleep you do not dream of me, you are not dreaming of me, you are not dreaming of me. I lay next to you and wish you rest. But, when you lay next to me do you wish me anything? I can feel...
February 2011
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having trouble writing an essay
(rather i’m just being lazy)
will instead play songs you’ve posted with ‘corny ass cryptic messages’ to keep her company amidst distance.
<3
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“There is the buried language and there is the individual vocabulary, and the...”
– Derek Walcott’s Nobel lecture, The Antilles: Fragments of Epic Memory
January 2011
3 posts
“make peace make peace make peace”
– with yourself first
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“Wake up to love.”
– Happy New Year. Lloyd says this is the year of the lover.
December 2010
10 posts
la famille
sometimes i’ll just never understand how we are bound as if tethered leashed and like anything tied around you it strains and pulls wears and bearing it is too much to think about and like anything tied around you you can’t escape it can’t release yourself from it can’t rid yourself of it without (firstly?) hurting yourself without suffering some kind of burn it strains and...
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stories 'bout a sweetheart series - part ii
He was mocked by the same holiday he hated. His cousin brought with her, all the way from the 2nd level senior-citizen-proof apartment, the 2010 Holiday Gift Pack — Special Holiday Gift Tags Enclosed! — And handed the pack to him.
“Here.”
“This isn’t mine!” Her response was lost to me in the chilled air. “This is Grampaw’s!”...
i feel like i need to speak with an oracle qualms qualms qualms qualms qualms
tell me i’m doing things right
alejoandbenito:
BIG
The same guy who played Allen Ginsberg in “Howl”.
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But the trajectory is the same
Not so lonely. Just send out a text message. Then receive bbmsgs in return. LOVE IS LOVE IS LOVE IS FRIENDSHIP.
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muy lonely
saturday night and all friends are out of reach. out of touch. out of reach. opposite-lives running parallel, like in math class with the textbook open and it’s #7, with two straight lines at 180 degrees with extender-arrows to show mrs. math teacher that you’re extending your lines.
it’s quiet and breathing is all you hear. just one body’s in-out of air. the...
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We Love You, Though -- Y'all are our friends and...
KP: U seen them?? They wear oversized scarves.
Shaved head.
BP: Ahahaha, and tank tops
KP: Big comb over
BP: That are hanging and sheer. And "bras".
KP: Small tee with tights
BP: Yaya
KP: Yea yea
BP: And hose with runsssss
KP: That's them in the summer
BP: Like ladders
KP: And then combat boots
BP: And smeared mascara and/or lots of eye make-up
KP: And this applies to boys and girls
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“Hey, Lover. Malgré ce que j’ecris de toi (s’il te semble du...”
– YUNG!
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Non-pareils
Il a aimé avant moi
Il a aimé en avant mais pas moi.
En revanche
Je n’aimais jamais.
Et ca m’effraye
Cela m’effraye jusqu’au point
Que je me sens
Pleurer.
Quoi faire quand
T’es amoureuse mais
T’es pas certaine
Que son amour est vrai
vrai vrai vrai ?
Tu danse entre
Oui et Non :
Certaine ou Pas :
Si ce qu’il te dit
Et ce...
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November 2010
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stories 'bout a sweetheart series - part i
It’s been a while; academia has kept your girl occupied. Here is a story that’ll hopefully break all streams of thoughts that have you wondering about me.
xo.
stories’boutasweetheartseries……………………
Right after he calls to say, “I’m here,” you clamber down the stairs, still sleepy. Reminding yourself of...
October 2010
14 posts
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Dear School pt ii
I think I might just cry this weekend
I will murder U of T … in an excellent way, with my intelligence, with my leadership abilities, with my future diplomatic status, with my donation of x amount of dollars to build the Palanca Dining Hall and to fund the Palanca Foundation for full-time working students of a visible minority. Shit, son. Excerpt from an email I sent my Ate a couple...
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A self-proclaimed future lawyer...
… just snorted behind me. Hey there, dork!
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astrophil and stella, according to me
Lovely, you are a star,
said my Astrophil.
I say, I cannot be more far
from ideas celestial.
Lover, how do I
Tell you I
Tell you I
Tell you I
Dream of your eyes
Long for that look
Wish for your gaze
To meet mine
To stay mine
Ever and here
Lover, how do I?
Tell me I
Can guard this etoile
Tell me I
Can have its shine.
Tell me you
Will say yes.
Pinoy Noir: Privileged shit stinks the worst. →
pinoynoir:
“Nice talking to you, I really mean it”, she sincerely said as she walked away with her friend in the rain.
I gave her a nodding goodbye without a handshake, despite the fact that everybody around her, known and unknown to her, gave her this pleasantry.
Our interaction wasn’t pleasant.
From the…
“Homegirl, this isn’t your turf.”
All my love to honest men...
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not sleeping tonight
just a few scrambled thoughts before i jet to birthday dinner.
too many choices made for the now for the right now for the instant gratification. but nothing too drastic that i regret cos i don’t do that, i don’t regret shit.
i thought i was getting real with school but i’m just getting murdered, well on my way to it. i was gonna write ‘murked’ but i’m really...
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“There are three classes of men; lovers of wisdom, lovers of honor, and lovers of...”
– Plato (via theessentialman)
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a haiku series for lovers
Kidnap me; hold me Hostage in yesterday’s truth: Until tomorrow.
Well unexpected I don’t suppose you knew this Would keep us here, now.
I’m not leaving ‘til you come back here. Come back, keep your promises.
I know, right? Haha. Now time for some sociolinguistique.
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Action de grâce
To family. To friends. To former-friends. To those who stay only to teach lessons, then leave soon after, or in the middle of the session. To all those whom I spoil with love and cuddly things. To those who I will never get to love and cuddle. To those near and to those far.
I give thanks for ye. Happy Thanksgiving, err’baddy. Give love.
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gud mahnen
One of my favourite phrases - there’s a limited amount of time in the day during which it can be employed, it’s peppier than ‘Good Afternoon’ or ‘Good Night,’ it symbolizes the beginning of the day. That’s why I like it.
But this morning, this is my ‘Good Morning’ face.
I’m hungry, my BB is dying (wahhh), Isa’s house is void...
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“You with all those curves,
And me without no breaks — ooh!”
– DRIZZY in Deuces (remix)
Because it’s suggestive. Because it’s funny. Ehehe
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Dear School
Please don’t kill me. I like you much much better this year. And I know we are getting along much better now. I’m sorry about before, when I didn’t take you seriously, when I was taking you for granted, when I hadn’t acknowledged how much I valued you. So, please. Let’s stay amicable, yeah? I’ll be true to you. I promise, promise, promise.
xo,
B.
September 2010
5 posts
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We need quiet
Tone down your hype. We don’t need to hear it.
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upgrade, upgrade!
Sing the title of this post to the tune of Beyonce’s “Upgrade Ya.” So much better, non?
It has been a while, a while, a while. Unable to log on to other social networks, thus I asked myself, why not get on your tumblr-ing, B? And right now I am feeling self-conscious beeecause I am in one of the school libraries, with my back turned to half the people in this computer lab, and...
This might sound wrong to some people, but I don't...
ibadatqayyum:
In the Deathly Hallows film, I just want Bellatrix and Voldemort to fucking hook up. I don’t even care if she’s married already.
I am well aware that it’s not going to happen. It’s probably too much to ask for.
See even Voldemort wants Bellatrix’s ass.
C’est vrai! (J’ai peur de cet image-ci.)
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update - aout a fini, septembre est ici
I am eating a tangerine and it is so delightfully healthy! Mmm mm yes!
It is raining so hard, so desperately hard, so cleansingly hard. I welcome it and embrace it and wait for it every time.
Pending deadlines on my mind; I have been procrastinating like it’s nobody’s business. But I’ve always been an ‘in-her-own-time, three-days-before-the-deadline’ kind of girl.
...
August 2010
10 posts
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GOOD FOR LIFE
It’s one of the things which I aspire to be.
Today I learned, DON’T LOOK FOR THE BOOST, THE BOOST WILL FIND YOU.
Yes, yes, triple yes. Wooooooo!!! :)
Dear KP,
I wanted to sign your guestbook. Did you hide the link?? You have a nice page!
xo,
BP
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To make you happy
I caught a bee to make not honey for my honey but to make my honey happy. Trapped mid-flight from a farm of lavender amidst the purple bulbs. A giant worker bee large and hairy as they come. I couldn’t remember yellow but I remember brown. I remember black. And to my ears the incessant buzzing was caution voiced.
Listen
— I did not —
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July 2010
34 posts
here i go
she said, ‘i think you should say something. tell him. it’s only polite.’ and i say, ‘no i don’t think it’s necessary.’ what i mean to say is, ‘no, i don’t think it’s necessary to embarass myself.’
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